So let's me start from the COMPLETE begining. On saturday, I played rugby as usual. We won (yayy) and I felt fine for the rest of that day. The next day, I woke up with a sore bal, but nothing major enough to worry about. I went to work that night, but soon after I started I could notice my back getting noticably spree and spree by the minute. A few hours into the night and I couldn't even sit, I was in way too much pain. So I went home and went to clinic. After being in the office for a quick 20 second checkup the doctor said it was, well a sore back, and gave me anti-inflammitory medicine to help me.
This is my first issue. Why do doctors at clinics refuse to give their patients the full help and attention they deserve. I've had a sore back, and I know this is something different. Well fuck him, Its now thursday night and my back is still in same state.
But thats beside my main point for this medical system bashing post.
So I decided to pit myself on bedrest, mainly due to thee fact that there's not much else I can stand to do without the body-paralyzing pains. And too make matters worse, my throat started swelling up, which you can see would make it hard to breathe. So there's the image, me laying at home, coughing constantly but with no choice.
So my throat got so sore I had to go to emergency because of the fear that my throat might close completely. After 2 hours waiting in the flu-infested waiting room I was called in.
Now here's the MAIN reason for this blog. I know I don't have swine flu, so I go into a hospital, and without even cheking me out they diagnos me with the dreaded h1n1. I find this retarded. Anyone who goes into a hospital with any flu like symptoms will be diagnosed with the swine. Of course that's why is an epidemic. I will stick by the fact that I do not have the flu. The h1n1 is NOT a national emergency. Last year in America 36000 people died from the average flu, and so far only 1000 have died from h1n1. It's no bigger than the normal flu. And with doctors misdiagnosing people, it's hard to tell if the flu is really even worthy of ANY of the attention it's getting
to a special someone
I just want to say that eveen I may have been dissapointed with you, being able to talk it out and admit your mistakes takes more courage then anything, and for that I am really proud of you. Everyone makes mistakes but it takes a special person to be able to fix them, and be truly sorry for what they did. Sorry if I was not the most supportive friend when you were in need, that's not how a real friend would act. I messed up. But I want you to know that I do love you and would do anything to make you smile when your feeling down. I'm going to give you hugs and praises tonight just to show you that I'm not dissapointed, and will ALWAYS be there for you =)
My Letter to Kia
I recently purchased a used car from Applewood Kia in Surrey, British Columbia. The treatment I have received from this dealership since purchasing the car has been appalling.
On Saturday, Sept. 12, I purchased a 2006 Chevy Cobalt SS from Applewood Kia. On Friday, Sept. 18, the clutch on the car went, making the car un-drivable. I had the car towed to Applewood, however the dealership was closed for the night so I left the car outside the lot and waited for the next day.
On Saturday morning I went back to to dealership and spoke to the person who sold me the car. He told me to talk to the service department. I went to the service dept. and explained the situation to them. The gentleman at the service desk was extremely helpful and friendly and within a half hour they had the car in the shop and confirmed that it needed a new clutch, and it would cost approx. $2100.00 to repair.
I then spoke to the sales manager, Manny, informed him what had happened and that I felt the dealership should do these repairs for me as there was probably less than 200km on the car since I had purchased it.
Manny immediately went on the defensive, suggesting that there was nothing wrong with the car when I bought it and that it must have been all my fault that the clutch went. I told him I didn't think this was the case and that the clutch must have been on verge of going when I bought it.
Manny told me to leave it with him and he would see what he could do. He said he may not know anything until the following Monday, but he would call me Saturday evening and let me know what was happening either way. I received no phone call on Saturday evening.
On Monday, Sept. 21, I waited until noon for a phone call from Manny but never received one. I then drove to the dealership and spoke to Manny personally. He told me that he had not had a chance to talk to the service manager, but he would do so today and get back to me by 5 pm. At 4:50 pm I had still not heard from Manny so I called him at the dealership. He told me that he still had not spoken to the service manager but he would do so immediately and get back to me in 10 minutes. That was last time I spoke to Manny. He never called me back and I have not heard from him since.
On Tuesday, Sept. 22, I again waited until noon for a phone call that never came. I again drove to the dealership hoping to speak to Manny. When I got there I was informed that it was Manny's day off so I spoke to his partner, sales manager Darren Perkins. I explained all that I had been through with Manny. He had no knowledge at all about the situation but told me he would investigate and get back to me as soon as possible. A few hours later Darren called me back and told me he had spoken to Manny and the service manager and they decided that the best they could do for me was to repair the car at dealer cost which was approx. $1700.00. I told him that I did not think this was fair, especially after the way I had been treated the last 3 days, but he said it was the best they could do.
I asked him if there was someone else higher up I could speak to. He said that I could speak to Troy, who is the GM. I told Darren that I would like to speak to Troy and he told me that he did not have his number handy but he would call me right back with the number. I have not heard from Darren since and I don't expect that I ever will.
I have purchased many cars over the years and never have I been treated the way I have from this dealership. On 3 different occasions I was told by Manny he would call me back and never did. Darren also said he would call me back and never did. This has now gone on for 4 days and in my eyes nothing has been resolved.
I can not imagine that Kia wants their dealership represented this way.
I hope this gets my message through
lonely
I'm really feeling lonely in the world lately. I have friends, that's not the problem, it's that I'm ALWAYS just the friend. I want to be something more, but that never seems to happen for me.
Maybe girls just don't like me, maybe I'm too embaressing to be refered to as 'the boyfriend' I really don't know....
Maybe girls just don't like me, maybe I'm too embaressing to be refered to as 'the boyfriend' I really don't know....
titles are so hard to write
Still trying to get my mind off of everything. I decided to watch a movie, I went with scary, haunting in Connecticut. It keeps making me jump even at the most obvious moments. I guess it's just my mindstate. It's not a terrible movie, though I'm writing this while watching so it's not super captivating.
On a completely other note
I'm stuck between Twitter and blogging, I don't know what to choose but there's not enough room in my life for both. Twitter is quick and easy but sometimess I feel like writing a bit more indepth, like right exactly now
Twitter is open to everyone and it's kind of my area fr thig not me, like my feable attempts at comedy. I almost need to make seperate account for my comedic and serious sides
On a completely other note
I'm stuck between Twitter and blogging, I don't know what to choose but there's not enough room in my life for both. Twitter is quick and easy but sometimess I feel like writing a bit more indepth, like right exactly now
Twitter is open to everyone and it's kind of my area fr thig not me, like my feable attempts at comedy. I almost need to make seperate account for my comedic and serious sides
my blog
So you might wonder why I came back to my blog, and it's really quite simple.
My blog is exactly like my life, no one cares about it.
I come here to rant and rave, mainly to get stuff off my chest, and that's about it
Right now my life completely sucks
The whole car thing started this off, and it seems like everytime something big and bad happens to me, everything else in my life goes wrong.
So my car breaks down, I'm pissed off beyond all belief and people keep asking me why Im so sad, that's fine, granted. But then they keep picking at it, eventho they can see I'm sad and really don't want to talk. These are people who really really mean alot to me, probly the closest group of 'friends' I've had since I moved to surrey. Mammi, daddi, and daughter. It's sad to think of it, but they really are my best friends, which means I've never found good friends in the 5 years I've been living here. Pitiful...
So I had a rugby game today, and I love rugby, and was so excited for the game. Early in the game a got stomped, hard on my knee. I roughed it out, barely be able to walk but wanting to stay in the game. It felt better after the game but as of the time I'm blogging this, i can barely stand on it
Next, at work tonight, there's this girl. She means soo much to me and I couldn't imagine a life without her. She was supposed to come in at 5 but never showed up. We had no idea where she was. I was so worried that something could have happened to her, I don't know what I would have done if that was true. I didn't like to think of it, but I thought of what would have done if someone had done something to her. I think I may have killed them. No exageration. Finally though she came in, it was just a miscommunication
But that put me into a bad mood, back to full depression syndrome.
So now I'm at home, the same thing happened tonight. As much as I try to act normal, they can tell something is up, and they keep asking and asking what it is that's bothering me. I don't like to show my sadness, I like to be the good guy, but sometimes that's just too hard. They must just all think I'm an asshole now
All of this has brought me to this last thing, that always seems to come up when I'm in this state. I have no true friends. No one who I can talk to about this. The person I want to talk is always busy, and that's about it in that category.
So I'm resorting to blogging my sadness away. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day, but it won't...
My blog is exactly like my life, no one cares about it.
I come here to rant and rave, mainly to get stuff off my chest, and that's about it
Right now my life completely sucks
The whole car thing started this off, and it seems like everytime something big and bad happens to me, everything else in my life goes wrong.
So my car breaks down, I'm pissed off beyond all belief and people keep asking me why Im so sad, that's fine, granted. But then they keep picking at it, eventho they can see I'm sad and really don't want to talk. These are people who really really mean alot to me, probly the closest group of 'friends' I've had since I moved to surrey. Mammi, daddi, and daughter. It's sad to think of it, but they really are my best friends, which means I've never found good friends in the 5 years I've been living here. Pitiful...
So I had a rugby game today, and I love rugby, and was so excited for the game. Early in the game a got stomped, hard on my knee. I roughed it out, barely be able to walk but wanting to stay in the game. It felt better after the game but as of the time I'm blogging this, i can barely stand on it
Next, at work tonight, there's this girl. She means soo much to me and I couldn't imagine a life without her. She was supposed to come in at 5 but never showed up. We had no idea where she was. I was so worried that something could have happened to her, I don't know what I would have done if that was true. I didn't like to think of it, but I thought of what would have done if someone had done something to her. I think I may have killed them. No exageration. Finally though she came in, it was just a miscommunication
But that put me into a bad mood, back to full depression syndrome.
So now I'm at home, the same thing happened tonight. As much as I try to act normal, they can tell something is up, and they keep asking and asking what it is that's bothering me. I don't like to show my sadness, I like to be the good guy, but sometimes that's just too hard. They must just all think I'm an asshole now
All of this has brought me to this last thing, that always seems to come up when I'm in this state. I have no true friends. No one who I can talk to about this. The person I want to talk is always busy, and that's about it in that category.
So I'm resorting to blogging my sadness away. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day, but it won't...
fuck me
Long time since ive turned to here, I thought my problems had gone away, but fuck me, my life fucking blows
I bought my new car a week ago, yayyyy.... NOT
So you would think that buying a car from a dealership would be a safe choice, I mean they have a reputation to uphold. That is until that dealership turns you around, bends you over, and precides to fuck you, long and hard, in the ass.
I'll call them out, Kia Applewood, salespeople Jack and Sandra, address 16299 Fraser hwy. Phone number 604-635-3010
So what happened you might ask. Well I bought the car, and was assured everything was checked and ok. I felt safe. That was until a week later my car stopped. Literally stopped moving forward and sat there, just to say fuck you.
Remember this is a week after I bought it, and I had only driven 4 days of that week, and only 300 kms. So itook it back to Kia, well the towtruck took it to Kia and sat by helplessly.
At this point I was still optimistic, the people around told me it wasn't my fault, they had driven with me and saw that I don't drive the clutch hard or anything, so I don't know.
Kia says it's my fault, and says that it's not their responsiblilty to fix it. They quoted me 2000 to fix it.
So my new car, which I still havent
even seen all of it's features, is now useless. fuck my life
I bought my new car a week ago, yayyyy.... NOT
So you would think that buying a car from a dealership would be a safe choice, I mean they have a reputation to uphold. That is until that dealership turns you around, bends you over, and precides to fuck you, long and hard, in the ass.
I'll call them out, Kia Applewood, salespeople Jack and Sandra, address 16299 Fraser hwy. Phone number 604-635-3010
So what happened you might ask. Well I bought the car, and was assured everything was checked and ok. I felt safe. That was until a week later my car stopped. Literally stopped moving forward and sat there, just to say fuck you.
Remember this is a week after I bought it, and I had only driven 4 days of that week, and only 300 kms. So itook it back to Kia, well the towtruck took it to Kia and sat by helplessly.
At this point I was still optimistic, the people around told me it wasn't my fault, they had driven with me and saw that I don't drive the clutch hard or anything, so I don't know.
Kia says it's my fault, and says that it's not their responsiblilty to fix it. They quoted me 2000 to fix it.
So my new car, which I still havent
even seen all of it's features, is now useless. fuck my life
Rugby
So ever since I moved to surrey, Ive never really had a thing; a thing that I was good at, and enjoyed beyond all belief. That is except for rugby. I don't think I would be where I am today if it wasn't for rugby. Some of my best friends, and life expierences, have come frommthe sport.
So last march I suffered an injury beyond anything I really had faced. It was a game against semiahmoo, the second game of the season. It seemed harmless, just an ankle injury, bu it was something more. I love my team and was not going to sacrifice our season for my own health. Stupid choice I know...
So I struggled through the rest of the season, and I really mean struggled. I never have told anyone just how bad this injury was. At the time I just wanted to finish the season, and if my parents knew they wouldn't have let me continue. For a solid three monthes after my accident I was popping tylenol, like a lot. My parents didn't know, or my coaches, they all thought it was a mild twist or sprain. The fact is, I could barely walk. Every single step was torture. But I didn't show the pain. I couldn't let myself down
So i've stopped playing rugby for around 4 monthes now, and am starting to learn the extent of my foolishness. My ankle still hurts, it's done, finished, totalled, wrecked. I never went to a doctor, and feel it's too late. Any doctor will think I'm retarded for putting it off so long.
So rugby season is starting, and I've been wanting to play, but for some reason I don't feel the same way. I don't know if it's fear or just a lack of the same passion I had before. I just can't draw myself to go to practice. I want to, but something in my head keeps telling me NO, so I'm lost. Rugby has been so good for me but if my true wish is to stop playing, maybe I should follow my consious.
So last march I suffered an injury beyond anything I really had faced. It was a game against semiahmoo, the second game of the season. It seemed harmless, just an ankle injury, bu it was something more. I love my team and was not going to sacrifice our season for my own health. Stupid choice I know...
So I struggled through the rest of the season, and I really mean struggled. I never have told anyone just how bad this injury was. At the time I just wanted to finish the season, and if my parents knew they wouldn't have let me continue. For a solid three monthes after my accident I was popping tylenol, like a lot. My parents didn't know, or my coaches, they all thought it was a mild twist or sprain. The fact is, I could barely walk. Every single step was torture. But I didn't show the pain. I couldn't let myself down
So i've stopped playing rugby for around 4 monthes now, and am starting to learn the extent of my foolishness. My ankle still hurts, it's done, finished, totalled, wrecked. I never went to a doctor, and feel it's too late. Any doctor will think I'm retarded for putting it off so long.
So rugby season is starting, and I've been wanting to play, but for some reason I don't feel the same way. I don't know if it's fear or just a lack of the same passion I had before. I just can't draw myself to go to practice. I want to, but something in my head keeps telling me NO, so I'm lost. Rugby has been so good for me but if my true wish is to stop playing, maybe I should follow my consious.
blogging
So I've kinda been forgetting about blogging lately, mainly because I've been so busy. Working mon-fri, 8 hrs a day, plus deliveries on weds, fri, sat, sun, makes having a life really hard.
I know I want a new car, but I'm starting to find that maybe always working isn't the best way of achieving this. I want to spend more time with friends. I feel like I'm drifting away from all my friends, and the friends that I'm close with are either busy or don't want to hang out.
Hindsight is 20/20, I know, but I really wish I had lived my highschool life very differently. I've always been a chill back person but this has kind of left me with way less hood friends then everyone else. It really kinda sucks.
I know I want a new car, but I'm starting to find that maybe always working isn't the best way of achieving this. I want to spend more time with friends. I feel like I'm drifting away from all my friends, and the friends that I'm close with are either busy or don't want to hang out.
Hindsight is 20/20, I know, but I really wish I had lived my highschool life very differently. I've always been a chill back person but this has kind of left me with way less hood friends then everyone else. It really kinda sucks.
Whats up
I'm finally back to work, my legs are killing me, and I again have no life
Even tho I need money, having those couple weeks off was nice. I really don't like the idea that I'm never going to get that many days off again.
During school we had it good, 2 monthes off at summer, 2 wells at both Xmas and spring break. Yeah, it'll never happen again.
There's been a few really great people in my life lately who have really made me feel better about myself. Thanks =)
I'm hoping to try and get my life together and planned out over the next few weeks. A new car is tempting, but school might be the safe choice. And with monthly payments of $350 and insurance around the same, it might not be the wisest investment.
It feels good to be moving into the real world, and still I find it scary. I really want to do something big with my life. I want to start a business of some sort, and I just can't find the right thing for that to entail. Hopefully it will come to me, one day, soon.
Lyric of the day has been scratched, but I'm working on something new, to be released in the near future. Stay tuned...
Even tho I need money, having those couple weeks off was nice. I really don't like the idea that I'm never going to get that many days off again.
During school we had it good, 2 monthes off at summer, 2 wells at both Xmas and spring break. Yeah, it'll never happen again.
There's been a few really great people in my life lately who have really made me feel better about myself. Thanks =)
I'm hoping to try and get my life together and planned out over the next few weeks. A new car is tempting, but school might be the safe choice. And with monthly payments of $350 and insurance around the same, it might not be the wisest investment.
It feels good to be moving into the real world, and still I find it scary. I really want to do something big with my life. I want to start a business of some sort, and I just can't find the right thing for that to entail. Hopefully it will come to me, one day, soon.
Lyric of the day has been scratched, but I'm working on something new, to be released in the near future. Stay tuned...
FUCK APPLE
How can your software just break in a way that no one can fix it. Maybe Apple employees spend to much time butt fucking each other instead of working on their software. Everyone says "apple is the best, theor software is so easy to navigate." That fucking because they lock the shit out of everything they make so that when it fucking breaks fucking down no one can fix it.
Spending two fucking hours and the phone and not getting any progress is just fucking retarded. And treating me like I'm a computer-illiterate dirty cunt is retarded. I know more about computers then any of apples support staff, So don't spend five fucking minutes telling me how to open my FUCKING CONTROL PANEL. Anyone who says Apple software is better can suck on my shaft.
Apple, I shit on you
Spending two fucking hours and the phone and not getting any progress is just fucking retarded. And treating me like I'm a computer-illiterate dirty cunt is retarded. I know more about computers then any of apples support staff, So don't spend five fucking minutes telling me how to open my FUCKING CONTROL PANEL. Anyone who says Apple software is better can suck on my shaft.
Apple, I shit on you
what to do, what to do
My first full day off in awhile, but no ones free to hang out, as usual for me. I think I wanna go to maple ridge and just chill out there for awhile, and see things for my past
Tattoo Take 2
This one is a bit more defined and artistic
and BTW, it says Synergy, a word that means a tonne to me and continually keeps popping up in my life
My Work
While I'm working on some new projects I thought I'd toss up a link with of my old work
My Work
Hope you all (my imaginary audience) take a look and let me know what you think
My Work
Hope you all (my imaginary audience) take a look and let me know what you think
Tattoo #1
This is my first attempt using Photoshop in a long while
Something looks off and it might be a bit busy for a tattoo but I like the concept still.
Something looks off and it might be a bit busy for a tattoo but I like the concept still.
Tattoo
A few friends got me thinking about tattoos. I think I want one on my chest, like GSP
Time to fire up Photoshop, maybe tomorrow, designs to come =)
Time to fire up Photoshop, maybe tomorrow, designs to come =)
BACK!!
SO I'm back from camping, and aside from a few things and a really good, relaxing time.
Now its back to the real world, which involves me working 2 hours of I get back from my holiday
Let's do some math:
Deliveries +$24
Tips +$10 =(
Dinner -$14
Bubble Tea -$20
Gas for the night -$15
Grand Total -$15
I dont think this is the best way for me to be saving for a car. LOL. But its my first day back, give me a break. I can only laugh at myself
Yep, I've come to realize, thanks to a great friend, that I need to be more light hearted about myself, and just take life as it comes. Thanks RASberry =)
Now its back to the real world, which involves me working 2 hours of I get back from my holiday
Let's do some math:
Deliveries +$24
Tips +$10 =(
Dinner -$14
Bubble Tea -$20
Gas for the night -$15
Grand Total -$15
I dont think this is the best way for me to be saving for a car. LOL. But its my first day back, give me a break. I can only laugh at myself
Yep, I've come to realize, thanks to a great friend, that I need to be more light hearted about myself, and just take life as it comes. Thanks RASberry =)
girl @ camping
So theres this girl, I have no idea where she's from or how old she is. She's campin with who I think are her grandparents. I like her. So she's camping 2 spots over and our eyes keep finding a way of meeting. I think she has some interest in me, but she's always with her family. I keep trying to catch her alone but I can never find the courage in me to just say something. It just feels awkward to start conversation. Did I mention I have no idea of her age? She looks,well, devoloped. But I have the feeling that she could be really young, well, 15 at the younger is my guess. I wish I could approach girls easier. Maybe I'm asexual I really want to talk to her, but tonights our last night here. She's soo cute, but seems alone. I wish I could be there to comfort her. But if she younger then I think, and she could b, itll be, well could be, considered buse of some weird way. I guess it's not gonna happen. THIS IS WHY IM ALONE IN LIFE.
I wish someone could teach me how to talk to women that I like.
Update: I've made moves to talk to her twice since I orginally posted. Both times somethins happened to block me from getting to her. FML
Update 2: third try, denied. I think god is either trying to save me, or fuck with my mind so hard it's gonna come squirting out my ears soon.
Update 3: My confidence level in life right now is at 0. I somehow brought myself to a brand new low over all this.
I'll edit and lengthen this post later too
I wish someone could teach me how to talk to women that I like.
Update: I've made moves to talk to her twice since I orginally posted. Both times somethins happened to block me from getting to her. FML
Update 2: third try, denied. I think god is either trying to save me, or fuck with my mind so hard it's gonna come squirting out my ears soon.
Update 3: My confidence level in life right now is at 0. I somehow brought myself to a brand new low over all this.
I'll edit and lengthen this post later too
Sunnatime
Sun
Summertime
Sunnatime
Just relaxing and tryig to make the best of mu time off. Nothin to really complain about here.
It's too hot to think about stuff to blog.
It's not too hot to just relax
I think I'll choose the latter
Home in 2.5 days.... Yayyy.... =(
Summertime
Sunnatime
Just relaxing and tryig to make the best of mu time off. Nothin to really complain about here.
It's too hot to think about stuff to blog.
It's not too hot to just relax
I think I'll choose the latter
Home in 2.5 days.... Yayyy.... =(
Outcast
I sometimes get the feeling I was adopted.
I always seem to be the odd one out when it comes to my family. My personality just doesn't seen to fit in with theirs. Maybe I'm adopted. I always find myself repeating myself. Maybe I mumble. Sometimes I just get ignored completely. Maybe I'm too quiet. And when people acts silly for no reason, it bothers me. Maybe I'm stuck-up.
I might just be a loner, a social outcast as previously posted. But maybe, just maybe, imbadopted, from far away, where my behavior is normal. I could just like the independance, but I don't know.
I don't like typing on the iPhone so I'll edit this post later
I always seem to be the odd one out when it comes to my family. My personality just doesn't seen to fit in with theirs. Maybe I'm adopted. I always find myself repeating myself. Maybe I mumble. Sometimes I just get ignored completely. Maybe I'm too quiet. And when people acts silly for no reason, it bothers me. Maybe I'm stuck-up.
I might just be a loner, a social outcast as previously posted. But maybe, just maybe, imbadopted, from far away, where my behavior is normal. I could just like the independance, but I don't know.
I don't like typing on the iPhone so I'll edit this post later
Social anxiety
Social anxiety is a term used to describe an experience of anxiety (emotional discomfort, fear, apprehension or worry) regarding social situations, interactions with other and being evaluated or scrutinized by other people. It occurs early in childhood as a normal part of the development of social functioning, but may go unnoticed until adolescence. People vary in how often they experience social anxiety or in which kinds of situations. It can be related to shyness or other emotional or temperamental factors, but its exact nature is still the subject of research and theory.
Source: wikipedia
I don't know why, I just suck at social situations. If you have talked to me before insure you know this. I'm awkward. It might be intimidation or the feeling of not wanting to say something wrong, but it always affects me. People say it's shyness but I think there's something more.
Can someone help me see why I'm so socially awkward??? Please let me know
Blogging poolside
Sitting poolside, this is the life! The sky is blue, the bluest I've ever seen before. It's just so, relaxing. This is my first real break since Hawaii, and prbably the last kn what will be a long time. I'm finally done school, finished, which was supposed to be this great thing, but now I'm in the real world and I have no idea what to do now..
I wanna be my own person, work for myself, in a small setting. I want to have a business. Something that I'm interested in. I want to be fully involved and engaged in what I'm doing. I don't want to have people over me, constantly critquing my every move.
But I have no idea what to do. I'm hoping it will come to me, but I want it now. I know, I complain ALOT, but I do enjoy most of life. Everyone has there gripes, and I express my problems alot more than my enjoyment. I guess that makes me a pestimest.
I wanna be my own person, work for myself, in a small setting. I want to have a business. Something that I'm interested in. I want to be fully involved and engaged in what I'm doing. I don't want to have people over me, constantly critquing my every move.
But I have no idea what to do. I'm hoping it will come to me, but I want it now. I know, I complain ALOT, but I do enjoy most of life. Everyone has there gripes, and I express my problems alot more than my enjoyment. I guess that makes me a pestimest.
Going Camping
This is my last post before going camping. I love camping. It just gives me a chance to never have any set commitments and lets me be alone with my thoughts for a while. Maybe even give me a chance to start a new life, seeing as mine sucks right now. That should be my blog: mylifesucks.blogspot.com, seeing as I'm always bitching about something or another. I guess its just my release. I uno.
Thanks to that one perosn who makes my life worth living right now. She knows who she is. But really, thank you.
My quest to be a guitarist is going pretty well, I can actually play chords!! Transistions still are hard but I can actually hear music in what I'm playing now instead of just random strumming and singing really loud over it, pretending its a song. Thats REAL music =) .
I'm going to try and make a few posts while I'm gone, hopefully I can find wifi somewhere.
Keep on rockin in the free world
Thanks to that one perosn who makes my life worth living right now. She knows who she is. But really, thank you.
My quest to be a guitarist is going pretty well, I can actually play chords!! Transistions still are hard but I can actually hear music in what I'm playing now instead of just random strumming and singing really loud over it, pretending its a song. Thats REAL music =) .
I'm going to try and make a few posts while I'm gone, hopefully I can find wifi somewhere.
Keep on rockin in the free world
LOTD: Thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton
This has been stuck in my head all day
"Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd"
"Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd"
Day Four: Still no work
No work and all play makes Spencer a sad boy.
Will I ever be able to buy my new car? =(
Will I ever be able to buy my new car? =(
LOTD: VEGAS - 4" Stud
"this monotony, is killing me
one day rolls to the next
i know you’re doing your best
but drying paint might be more interesting
a liability, i’m becoming to my social scene
i’m down on my luck
it’s only fun when i’m drunk
i need a change of scenery"
Friends
Friend
Enemy
Frienemy?
Why can't friends act like a friend. I've known you for like 5 years now I thought we were close. But now you starting acting way different to me. That's not how real friends act. I don't know if I did something but I don't deserve all the rudeness ive been getting from you lately. It may sounds cocky but I deserve better. If this is how your going to act then I guess we can't be friends.... =( it's a shame but I'm not wasting my time on someone who doesn't treat me the same, loving way I treat them. Fuck that. I'll wait and see what your next move is, but I'm done. I've put up with this before and forgiven but I can't keep doing it.
Can you really break up with a friend? I guess I'll find out shortly....
Enemy
Frienemy?
Why can't friends act like a friend. I've known you for like 5 years now I thought we were close. But now you starting acting way different to me. That's not how real friends act. I don't know if I did something but I don't deserve all the rudeness ive been getting from you lately. It may sounds cocky but I deserve better. If this is how your going to act then I guess we can't be friends.... =( it's a shame but I'm not wasting my time on someone who doesn't treat me the same, loving way I treat them. Fuck that. I'll wait and see what your next move is, but I'm done. I've put up with this before and forgiven but I can't keep doing it.
Can you really break up with a friend? I guess I'll find out shortly....
LOTD: He Could be the One - Hannah Montana
"Smooth talkin’
So rockin’
A-he’s got everything
That a girl’s wantin’
Guitar cutie
He plays it groovy
And I can’t keep myself
From doing somethin’ stupid
Think I’m really falling for his smile
Get butterflies when he says my name"
So rockin’
A-he’s got everything
That a girl’s wantin’
Guitar cutie
He plays it groovy
And I can’t keep myself
From doing somethin’ stupid
Think I’m really falling for his smile
Get butterflies when he says my name"
My Bedroom
I thought you might want to get to know me a bit better. Here's my bedroom/game pad and the home base for my blog
WTF
2.5 FUCKING HOURS. That's what I get to work. I wake up at 7 yesterday to find out there's no fucking job then come in today and get two and a half fuckin hours! WHAT THE FUCK IS THE POINT OF ME WORKING? WHO CAN LIVE ON THAT LITTLE HOURS!?!?!?
I guess my new car future is looking gloomy....
I guess my new car future is looking gloomy....
Guitar
So I wanna learn to play guitar, I just don't know if I have the time/ambition to stick to it.
I did my first online lesson today. I learnt most of major chords (A,C,D,E,G) and a few major chords. My wrist is killing me but I think I'm starting to understand what draws me to wanting to learn. It's so relaxing to play and yet gives you such a sense of accomplishment when u nail a section.
I don't know what my first song will be but i'm sure playing a full song is long off in the distance. I'll keep you guys (my imaginary readers) informs on any progress I make.
I did my first online lesson today. I learnt most of major chords (A,C,D,E,G) and a few major chords. My wrist is killing me but I think I'm starting to understand what draws me to wanting to learn. It's so relaxing to play and yet gives you such a sense of accomplishment when u nail a section.
I don't know what my first song will be but i'm sure playing a full song is long off in the distance. I'll keep you guys (my imaginary readers) informs on any progress I make.
LOTD: Summertime - Brother Love
"When I was young / I'm talkin' bout the Good times
Just you and me was all we ever cared about
We had it all (we had it all) OH!
I'm talkin' bout the good times – times
Drinkin' all day / Drinkin' all night
Dancin' by the Fire light – C'mon!
Because you are, Hot as Hell!!
You know that You are, Beautiful Heaven!!!
Don't you know that you are, Summertime!!
You're all that I need."
Summertime - Brother Love
Just you and me was all we ever cared about
We had it all (we had it all) OH!
I'm talkin' bout the good times – times
Drinkin' all day / Drinkin' all night
Dancin' by the Fire light – C'mon!
Because you are, Hot as Hell!!
You know that You are, Beautiful Heaven!!!
Don't you know that you are, Summertime!!
You're all that I need."
Summertime - Brother Love
blogicide
Blog
Suicide
Blogicide
A blog which has no reason to exist, and wants to die
iPhone
Blogger
iPhlogger
Blogging from an iPhone
Suicide
Blogicide
A blog which has no reason to exist, and wants to die
iPhone
Blogger
iPhlogger
Blogging from an iPhone
Blogger day two
So this is supposed to be my first post for today, but I really have nothing to say, nothing that comes to mind. Maybe this blog wasn't a great idea, I might be too much of an undespoken person to be a blog owner, hopefully stuff will come to me soon...
First Day Complete
Sooooo...
I've successfully gotten through my first full day as a blogger...
How do I feel you might ask? Accomplished, and weirdly more at-ease with my inner feelings...
I think I'm starting to like this =)
So another day goes past and I can only look ahead, 5 more days of sweating it out as a labour boy until I get a break from this life, and a chance to possibly start a brand new one, if only for a week.
I've successfully gotten through my first full day as a blogger...
How do I feel you might ask? Accomplished, and weirdly more at-ease with my inner feelings...
I think I'm starting to like this =)
So another day goes past and I can only look ahead, 5 more days of sweating it out as a labour boy until I get a break from this life, and a chance to possibly start a brand new one, if only for a week.
LOTD: Digital Girl - Kanye West
To Keep myself blogging daily, I wanted to start a daily feature. I don't know if this will stay forever, but hopefully it will keep some people coming back
"I wanna see whats under there there now put it in the air
Yeah load it on my macbook air
Its a new form of macking don't be old fashioned update your passion
Only reason I be eye chattin its when its time for some action "
Digital Girl - Kanye West
"I wanna see whats under there there now put it in the air
Yeah load it on my macbook air
Its a new form of macking don't be old fashioned update your passion
Only reason I be eye chattin its when its time for some action "
Digital Girl - Kanye West
Keith and the Girl
Brumski!!!
So this is a podcast (internet talk show) feature two hosts, Keith and Chemda. Along with daily guests, they talk about daily events, their very eventful lives and childhoods, and just whatever comes up in conversation.
This show may be the single greatest thing I have ever listened too. 'It brings my day up even on the worst of days. Their brand of comedy and commentary on events could make even the most cynic person crack the odd smile.
Countless times I have caught myself laughing aloud in public only the notice the weird glares from people passing by. Only this show can make me feel the way i do when I boot up my iPhone and click on the newest episode.
Congratualtions Keith and the Girl on their 1000th show!!! Can't wait to see the next 1000 updating in iTunes over the next few years
I hope everyone who reads this blog checks out this show. Party Super Party!
Keith and the Girl
An Introduction to Keith and the Girl
My (hopefully) Soon to be Car
Hopefully this will be mine within the next few monthes. Isn't she a beaut?
Girls
I don't understand girls, I know that it sounds like every other guy, but there's only a few things that really confuse me.
1. Why do you stay with someone who treat you badly? I know you might think that it's fixable, but if it goes on for months and months, is there really anything left to stay together for? There's always another guy who will treat you better. you may think your in love but if everyday you regret waking up, that's not healthy. And if your worried about hurting the guy, just think. If he really loves you would he make you feel this bad all the time.
2. What's with the mood swings? Okay I know what your going to say. "They're on their period." But why can you talk to someone and be having a perfectly normal conversation, only to have them spazz on you just because you say something that can only possibly be slightly misconstrued as out of line. Do girls find some sort of satisfaction in bringing guys down?
3. What's with girl having to get there way? Okay, this may not apply to all girls, but theres a few in my life which will hold to the smallest thing and would argue to the death against you on it. Again, is there some sort of satisfaction in bringing guys down?
4. Let's just be friends....I've heard this way too many times....
1. Why do you stay with someone who treat you badly? I know you might think that it's fixable, but if it goes on for months and months, is there really anything left to stay together for? There's always another guy who will treat you better. you may think your in love but if everyday you regret waking up, that's not healthy. And if your worried about hurting the guy, just think. If he really loves you would he make you feel this bad all the time.
2. What's with the mood swings? Okay I know what your going to say. "They're on their period." But why can you talk to someone and be having a perfectly normal conversation, only to have them spazz on you just because you say something that can only possibly be slightly misconstrued as out of line. Do girls find some sort of satisfaction in bringing guys down?
3. What's with girl having to get there way? Okay, this may not apply to all girls, but theres a few in my life which will hold to the smallest thing and would argue to the death against you on it. Again, is there some sort of satisfaction in bringing guys down?
4. Let's just be friends....I've heard this way too many times....
Reckless Reasoning
The title of my blog,
I'm hoping to use this blog to try and rationalize my life, whether it makes sense or not.
Reckless - adj. utterly unconcerned about the consequences of some action; without caution; careless
Reasoning - noun. the process of forming conclusions, judgments, or inferences from facts or premises.
I don't care what people think of me, what I write, or my opinions. I'll say what's on my mind, and never go back and change something. If I blog it at one point, it will always stay relevant. I need to unclutter my mind, and put my thoughts out there for anyone who cares, which I'm sure no one does.
Please comment on what I write, I love to hear what others think, even if it's negative. I don't care, I can take it =)
I'm hoping to use this blog to try and rationalize my life, whether it makes sense or not.
Reckless - adj. utterly unconcerned about the consequences of some action; without caution; careless
Reasoning - noun. the process of forming conclusions, judgments, or inferences from facts or premises.
I don't care what people think of me, what I write, or my opinions. I'll say what's on my mind, and never go back and change something. If I blog it at one point, it will always stay relevant. I need to unclutter my mind, and put my thoughts out there for anyone who cares, which I'm sure no one does.
Please comment on what I write, I love to hear what others think, even if it's negative. I don't care, I can take it =)
My First Blog Post
Welcome possible future readers,
I've never done this before, In fact until a few days ago I never thought that a blog would be for me. But someone told me how much a blog helps their life, even if no one reads it. Their blog is very important to them, and they say it help them express themselves when there is no one to talk to. (I will not mention a name).
I don't know if I this is for me, seeing as I'm shy and never really have much to say, which is kind of important to a blog. But I'll give it a try and hopefully let it expand my mind, rational thinking or not. I might hate this but I'll give it a try for a while.
I've never done this before, In fact until a few days ago I never thought that a blog would be for me. But someone told me how much a blog helps their life, even if no one reads it. Their blog is very important to them, and they say it help them express themselves when there is no one to talk to. (I will not mention a name).
I don't know if I this is for me, seeing as I'm shy and never really have much to say, which is kind of important to a blog. But I'll give it a try and hopefully let it expand my mind, rational thinking or not. I might hate this but I'll give it a try for a while.
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